The Cycle of Caring

As a child, there isn’t generally much you’re too concerned about. You play. You eat. You love your parents. Life is enjoyable and without complication.

When I was a kid, the last thing I was worried about was my appearance. Comfort was what mattered. Comfort and functionality (though I probably didn’t call it that back then). Thus, as a child, when I got to choose what outfit to wear, it might be a dress, not so much because it’s cute, but because it’s airy and comfy. If I had to wear pants, it was only sweatpants, or my personal favorite, windpants (thank you 90s). Never, EVER would I wear a pair of jeans. Those were highly uncomfortable. Why would I want to put that on my body?

Blissfully I defied the laws of fashion until I reached fifth or sixth grade. This was about the age that my peers, or more specifically the really mean she-devils, began to question my choice in clothing. Thus began my quest to “fit in” or as the title suggests, the beginning of my long journey of “caring”.


Thus have I tried, and often failed, in my attempts to follow the ever changing rules and trends of fashion. Of course, as a teenager who hailed from a rather poor, redneck Mainer family, I had little hope of fitting in with the popular girls and their beautiful clothes. Let’s not even mention the goth phase, which at the time seemed simply fabulous.


Now as an adult I can’t leave the house without my face plastered in makeup and a nice business casual outfit in tow. Since graduating college I’m even ashamed to wear a simple t-shirt when I go out.

All in all, I must say I look forward to the fabled day the old ladies tell me about where you start getting grays, stop getting noticed by people, and therefore can wear whatever the hell you want.



Gamer Problems – Buying Skins


I have been playing League of Legends for a little under a year now and have encountered various tough decisions throughout my gameplay. One of the major decisions was whether or not to purchase RP. When I had first started playing League, I swore that I would never allow myself to purchase RP, because it was a game, and not worth spending money on. If I happened to receive some as a gift, great, but I would not buy it for myself.

This decision did manage to work for a time, my boyfriend and I occasionally exchanged gifts of RP on birthdays or at Christmastime. Yet as time went on I began to want skins more and more. Partially because I enjoyed the game so much and partially to show my love for a particular champion.

Now, this may be a problem that only I have, but choosing a skin has never been easy for me. This is likely due to my being acutely aware of the fact that I am paying REAL MONEY for these skins, and I hate to waste said real money on something I won’t absolutely love. That being said, I have gone weeks before actually using RP that is stored on my account. Sometimes I keep some on hand, just in case a skin I like goes on sale, in which case, it holds more value because I am getting it at a lower price.

So, what exactly goes into making a final decision on a skin, one may ask? Well, apparently, quite a bit.

1)    Plain and simple, do I find it aesthetically appealing. This could mean, is it pretty, is it cute, or, from my odd perspective, or is it kind of sexy (I don’t know why, since I’m a girl, but I actually find the fanservice skins entertaining).

2)    How often do I use the champion? Just because I really like a skin, doesn’t mean it will get much use if I don’t play the champion very often, in which case, it’s kind of a waste of funds. For example, I like Caitlyn, finally bought her, but then found I hardly played her. While there was one skin in particular I really liked, I only played her maybe 1 out of 20 games, so it wasn’t worth buying it.

3)    Finally, what does it cost. Even if I really like a skin, and it fits under the preferences of the first two categories, I may choose not to buy it and instead get more skins for a smaller cost. I wouldn’t necessarily say I’m cheap, but I do certainly know value when I see it. I put off buying a Lulu skin for a long time, because Dragon Trainer was my favorite but it was much more expensive than most the other skins I was interested in.

Keep in mind, all of these important factors went out the window when Riot introduced mystery gifts. I exchanged gifts with friends and received two for a champion I absolutely hate, just for the thrill of mystery gifting.

So, what goes aspects go into your decision when buying a skin? Do you have a particular favorite skin? Or do you completely avoid them because you feel they aren’t worth the money?